Happiness

Iv come to the conclusion that i have an amazing life.

For once im happy. It may not be perfct but nothing ever is.

I love the people in my life and im grateful for the way things are.

I wouldnt want it any other way <3

Realisation

Ive realised that i spend to much time worrying about simple things, things that dont evern matter, or arent that big of a deal. I spend alot of my time stressing about what im gonna do with my life. But ive realised that i can do whatever i want wth my life, no one has control over it but me. Im greatful for the everything that i have. I wouldnt want it any other way. The people i have around are the reason i get up everyday. The reason that i think that maybe this life isnt as pointless as it seems. Because as long as i have them i could never want anything more. They never seize to amaze me.
Everyone is gonna hurt you at some point in your life. Its just a matter of finding the ones that are worth suffering for. Ive been hurt so many times, ive fallen down, and never thought id be able to get up again. But its finding the strength to get back up again that makes you who you are. Like they say, what doesnt kill you can only make you stronger. Only some things hurt so much that the scars will never fully be healed. Ive learned this the hard way. I have told myself time and time again that im over him, i couldnt care less if he wants me or not but truth is, i struggle going through just one day without talking to him, and it kills me to know that he doesnt feel the same way. If there was one thing that i was able to change in my life it would be that i love him. I hate that i love him. It amazes me how you can hate but love someone so much all at the same time. I clong to every word, just the smallest things that he says can make my day, make me smile like no one else can. I dont know how to make this stop. Make the pain of not having him go away. Im clinging onto the smallest hope that he will one day want me back. Even though i know it wont happen i would wait around forever just wishing that it would. I just cant seem to move on. I dont know how to let go. I cant let go. And its slowly driving me insane.
The only thing that is keeping me from losing my mind are the amazing people that iv surrounded myself with. I will forever be greatful to them.

chances...

sometime you just gotta take that chance,
even though you know its probably a mistake.
sometimes you just gotta make mistakes,
just to be sure it is one,
other wise your life will be filled with "what ifs"

so recently i took a chance on someone,
i always had a feeling it wouldnt work,
but i took that chance,
coz i couldnt live with the thought of what if?
and well it was a mistake.
but a mistake im kinda glad i made.
coz now im not filled with the regret that i know i would of been.

live life the way you wanna live it.
take chances coz one day that chance might be the best thing you ever did.

i miss you...

i hate when you hardly talk to someone anymore
that you use to talk to everyday without fail.
and when you see them again the old feelings come back
and you realise just how much you miss them
and just how much you wish you were stil close.
id give anything just to be able to go back in time
to that one day that i loved so much
that one day when i realised how much i loved him.
i miss you.....

life

everyone falls down,
its the strength that you have to get back up that makes you the person that you are.
the mistakes you make are just part of life,
learning from them is the important part.
iv learned that the people around me have the greatest effect on my life.
and i am forever grateful to them for being apart of it.
iv realised i would be no one without them and i cant explain how much they mean to me.
i always try to see the good in everything
even though sometimes thats almost impossible.
iv learned that sitting around and moping isnt gonna get you anywhere
or make things any better.
if you just wait for things to get better it probably isnt going to any time soon.
getting up and doing somethin about it is what will make you hapy again.
but when ive been unable to find the strength to do this my friends have always been there,
i wouldnt be who i am today if it wasnt for them.
so thank you everyone who has been apart of my life
i owe you guys the world.